Well, so much for getting this posted before I got caught up in the madness of the year’s end. 2010 really has crept up on me, without the pillowy period between Samhain and Yule I usually reserve for noodling about what I’ve learned in the year past, and what I want to focus on for the coming one. I suppose, in spite of the last-minute-ey feeling of it, I should set out the theme for 2010. I’d basically decided on this early in November (which is about right for me) I just hadn’t come up with the wording.
(Note: in case you’re wondering why the blog (when it’s updated) took an all-me-all-the-time turn of late, that tends to happen in November/December. As it gets colder, I get all introspective-hibernate-y while gearing myself up for next year’s reinvention. It’s silly, maybe, to make self-improvement such a calendar-based thing, but it seems to work. By Yuletide I usually know what I’m aiming for in the year ahead, so I can relax and send out the old year in proper fashion: with lots of laughter and lots of indulgence. This year, of course, there was rather a lot more scrambling, and ripping and glueing, but the principle is good.)
Anyway, so the theme for 2010? The short version (i.e. the version I will be hissing between my teeth at myself) is Do It Anyway. The long version is You know this is good for you, so stop your whining that you don’t want to, and do it anyway. There are obvious implications on the health/fitness side of things: don’t feel like running today? Do it anyway. Hate eating eggplant/butternut squash/boiled spinach? Do it anyway. Don’t want to go to sleep yet? Do it anyway.
What I especially like about this theme, however, is all the meta-stuff that it can apply to as well. Public speaking, approaching That Guy That Everyone In The Department Is Scared Of, starting on that project I’ve been putting off for 6 years, even balancing a chequebook. Doesn’t matter what the task at hand is, if I know it’s something I “should” do, I’m not letting myself hide behind sad excuses anymore.
If I can keep in mind this past year’s theme (baby steps: a small step forward is better than no progress at all) then getting myself started on… well anything I’ve been resisting should go much better. I may not behave like one most days, but I did inherit the Pisces trait of being crappy at starting projects.
Still, I’m happy with this. It’s in keeping with where I’ve tried to keep my focus since last year, and I’m hoping it’ll spur me to knock down some of the lists that keep building up in my head.
Take one step in faith, and believe that the rest will be easier. Even if you don’t want to.