Well, today is my big day. Wait, let me try that again: it’s My Big Day.
I apologize for the erratic blogging in the past couple months, but despite my l33t organizational sk1llz (no seriously, normally I’m awesome!) the past few months have been something of a hectic frenzy, and time out for myself (for yoga, for cooking, for blogging) has been… minimal.
Today however — which dawned sunny and blue-skied and bright, thank you weather gods! — is my day. And aside from feeling eerily calm, I just wanted to take a little moment document it for myself. Of all the messages on the card my teammates sent me, the single most repeated one was “do not get caught up in the details the day of — just enjoy the day”. This was extra funny to me because it’s a team of 11 guys, but apparently it’s not just brides who worry.
So, as I sit here with my tooth-whitening strips on (note: they feel weird when I keep accidentally chomping down on their paperyness) I can remember feeling really lonely and bleak in the last month, but mostly I’m just overwhelmed at all of the happy, willing help being proffered, most of it at the last minute, and all of it accompanied by understanding smiles and well-wishes.
I don’t know if it’s just that we have fantastic friends (and we do!) or if there’s something about weddings that taps into some extra well of generosity in the souls of people, but I feel like my favour-asking, and friend karma at this point is pretty much spent. On the plus side, if it means that I have many happy years ahead of me helping other couples through the rush of their day, I’m okay with that too. I like weddings, but I love being helpful; everybody wins!
So, what else can I comment about my state of mind this morning? I am calm. My single worry is about the hair salon appointment, which is a mere 3 hours before the ceremony. Every single other detail, however, I either believe that I’ll manage, or I’ve trusted to the capable hands of all the aforementioned helpers.
So, despite all appearances from the last week, which started off a little flustered, and wound its way up to peak yesterday at All Crazy All The Time, today seems to be the happy (sunny!) eye of the storm. (Following this pattern, it no doubt follows that the ensuing week of cleanup and follow-up with hired services, preparing for a trip, etc. will also be madness, but I can worry about that later.)
Small things that I would want to remember about this morning?
- I woke up (around 6 actually) to the sound of birdsong
- When I actually hauled myself out of bed (umm, around 7:20), the two kitties were in the basket together, grooming each other
- I’m hungry, and not afraid to eat
- The sky is a glorious, promising shade of blue; I might regret the lack of cloud later when taking photographs, but for right now, this is all I could wish for, weather-wise
- I am completely relaxed where my friends and family are concerned; I just know that today is going to be fantastic.
I’m excited, and happy (and hungry) and amazed at how calm (have I said that already?) and not-nervous I am. I’m so awed by everyone’s helpfulness and generosity and I can’t wait to get through this morning of prep to get to the part of today where other people are involved.
It’s going to be a great day.